My day has been full of mixed emotions. Today would have been the due date of our sweet little Rachel. While the day was hard and I was weepy and emotional at different times throughout it I also had such a great peace and comfort knowing that this was the plan our Heavenly Father, Rachel and Ryan & I along with Brooke and Sydney agreed to. Would it be easy? No, the path has been hard but we have never been left alone. The Savior and our Heavenly Father knew we would need Them along with family and friends to help us get throught this. I truly have been blessed with a comfort that comes out of nowhere sometimes it feel like. What a perfect plan we had set before us, nothing was left out.
I think of her often and wonder what her life would have been like here with us. I have read some good books that have strenthened my testimony and shed a little light on why this had to happen and what will happen in the life to come. Ryan and I have stayed close and I am so grateful to him for his love and understanding, I'm not too easy to live with somedays :)
This is Rachel Lynn
She was perfect, just needed a little more time to grow.
These are all some different memories that we were given to always keep her close in our hearts. The top left is a Willow Tree statue called "The Angel of Remembrance" given by my brother Drew and his wife and one of my best friends Kellie, thank you again. The flowers are some from the many we received, and the other Willow Tree box is Mother and child from my Aunt Carrie. The hospital had a company come and they were able to get an impression of Rachel's hand and foot. This was a surprise to me, a great one. And the beautiful frame for the picture was from Ryan's Mom and Dad. 
13 comments:
Jamie!!! Here I am up at 2am because we just had an encounter with a huge spider and I can't sleep and I just read your beautiful post about your daughter. How difficult this must be to think about Rachel and then Brooke growing up. This earth life plan is so much out of control and yet there is a peace to that, yes, knowing that the Lord knows all and sees all. Your girls, all three, are blessed to have you as their mom and I know when the time is right you will be able to raise Rachel too. You're in my prayers!
My sweet, sweet Jamie... I had NO idea that this happened to you and your family. You probably get tired of hearing everyones sympathy, but, how strong you are. Heavenly Father must know this too and be so proud of you to be able to handle such a sad trial. Rachel must have been so special! You are such a good person and a good example. I miss having you around and wish I could be with you!
You are in my prayers.
What a difficult time. My sister-in-law just went through something similar this weekend. Our prayers are with you and your faith inspires us. We love you and your family. Brooke looks so sweet going off to kindergarten.
Jamie, our love and thoughts are with you are and your sweet family. I love the little cast of Rachel's feet and hand, what a nice memory for you to have. What a blessing it is that you and Ryan have such strong testimonies to help get you through. Your family is amazing...we love you!
Jamie:
Thank you for posting this. It strengthens me to see where people turn for comfort and the ability to endure.
You are right, the plan is perfect and nothing was left out.
Thinking of you,
Andrea
Thanks for sharing on a day when it would be easy not to. What a lucky little girl to have you a mom. We are still thinking of you.
Oh, Jaime. I'm so glad you shared. What precious little mementos to remember Rachel by.
It's so touching to see your strength and character and testimony.
Love you guys. We're thinking of you.
You and your family have been in my thoughts this week. Your strength is truly inspirational. Thank you for including us in your journey, and for sharing the pictures of your precious little angel. Although I have a very small idea of all you are going through, I take comfort in your testimony of the Saviour and knowledge that he does know. You have such a beautiful family!
Jamie,
Hi! I just looked at the comments on my blog, saw yours and made it to your site. I have just scrolled through several of your entries and really enjoyed watching the progress of your family. I'm also so sorry to hear about your loss. I think I'm a bit emotional because I am 20 weeks pregnant and just found out it's a boy. Things look good but my heart ached for you at losing your baby during this stage. I sure love you and appreciate you sharing your personal thoughts, grief and faith.
love,
Sara Roberts
I love what you said. What a great plan that Heavenly Father has for us. Talk to you soon.
Jamie, I can not tell you how much you inspire me, when I feel like my trials are too heavy to carry, I find your posting and learn from you how we should always trust our Heavenly Fathers plan. Thanks I'll keep you in our prayers.
Jamie,
I'm sorry I am behind in commenting sooner. I cried when I saw your post because of the loss of Rachel. Thank you for being brave enough to share this experience. Rachel is beautiful and I hope you know your family is in my thoughts.
Love,
Natalie Ormond
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